Life as a Christian Woman

Some days you just want to get away. It’s not that anything particularly bad has happened or anything has gone wrong. You just need a little mini vacation from typical life. The kids are behaving, the husband is behaving, and the day is normal; but you suddenly look around and think, “I don’t want to be doing this today!”

I had one of those times yesterday. I seemed to be trapped in a cycle of “I should be…but I don’t want to.” Luckily, I have a God who is there with me all the time. I have a quiet place in my mind that I go to meet God on those days. I see a meadow, sometimes with tiny wildflowers, sometimes with just waving green grass. A little to the left, about a third of the way in the meadow, is a big, leafy tree. It has thick, strong branches that reach out and create a cool shady circle. I imagine that God walks there and when I just need a quick break, I go there to meet him. I set aside all of my roles as wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend, writer, and whatever else someone might want me to be that day. When I go there, I am simply God’s. Sometimes I talk to him. Sometimes I just sit and feel his presence, a soft bunny in my lap and a clear blue stream flowing behind me.

You know that still small voice people always talk about? Well, I can hear it there. Or really, I can sense it there in God’s meadow. More than just a voice, I can sense the power, but also the love. I experience the awesome majesty of our Lord, but at the same time I know his compassion just for me at that moment. I am with a friend, a confidant; an old, dear companion that I have known for a long time. Maybe I forget to call him sometimes. Maybe things happen occasionally that I forget to tell him about. But if I show up at his place, he is waiting there just for me, already knowing what I need before I even tell him.

When something is really wrong, I imagine myself at God’s throne, kneeling at his feet. I imagine him taking me in his arms and pulling me to him, the angels around him and Jesus to the side, acknowledging to the Father that I am his child. For it is through Jesus, I am granted an audience with the “great I Am”, the omnipotent, omniscient, omnipresent Alpha and Omega. My troubles and my fears are taken to the foot of his heavenly seat and laid there, waiting for his guidance because he alone has the power to aide me. But sometimes, I just want a leisurely walk or a quiet conversation, not about trials and tribulations but about life in general. I meet him halfway for those personal walks.

Just a few minutes of crashin’ God’s pad, and all is right again. I go back to my sweet son, my loving husband, my pets that make me laugh, and my work feeling refreshed and remembering why I do this, all of it, everyday. I love it. God has led me to the things in my life in which I can find satisfaction and a sense of fulfullment. His reasoning and infinite wisdom are behind every single little ordinary thing. Every once in a while, like yesterday, I just need to be reminded that this is where, and how, I belong.

Photograph by Kreon. www.sxc.hu

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